Things once done can't be undone

Monday, July 12, 2010
|1:03 AM|

When things just don't go the way you want it, then how??

Ever question yourselves what you can do when faced with something that you least expected to happen to you? I asked myself so many times. So many things happened and we just find it hard to comprehend. Sometime we find it hard to comprehend. So how can we solve these problems?

The thing we can do is to keep ourselves strong. We need to be aware of what is happening around us and find out what is the best way that we can accept the fact that all these are happening. Never escape the situation. Face it! We cannot sweep all these troubles under the carpet because when we lift up the carpet, the mess will be too much for us to clear. Instead,we can clear these mess one by one. It is hard to do that alone. Thus, I recommend you to find good friends to support you and help you through the process.

Jiayou people out there who are having problems like me..

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Saturday, June 19, 2010
|1:02 AM|

It is okay not to be okay
We don't have a perfect life.We get hurt and we get affected by a lot of things. There are many things on this earth that we cannot control. We cannot control how people look at us and we cannot control what is going to happen to us next.

I don't know how much time I've left on this world but just when I'm preparing for the worst, something else worse happens. Some people around me showed me how much they wanted gone from their lives. They think that I'm a B**** who make use of others to get what I want. They think that I made others feel inferior and sad so that I can feel superior and haapy.

Just in a split of the time, all these camo right at me. I cannot comprehend le. Too much for me to bear. At first I didn't want to leave my love ones so early but now t seems like I being detest. The sooner I leave, the sooner they will be released from the sufferings I give them. Sorry if I caused you sufferings. I didn't mean it.

It hurts to realise how much of a demon I am. This person's last words to me was-" JUST F*** OFF B**** , UR HOPELESS" . Can see that this person hate me to the core. At least that person got a chance to sold me and release his anger. I'm being hated and detested. What a joke. I wanted to help people like me but I cannot even comprehend it myself.It is eating me up from inside out.

I'm so hopeless right? A horrible girl. I deserve to be hated and detested after all. I tried so hard to develop this blog in a good way but it still end up like that but I think that maybe you all learn something from this blog is that no matter how much a bad person try to change, peple still have the image of that bad person in their mind. I tried so hard but truth is that it just doesn't work out for me.

To all the readers, thanks for reading my post.
To the people who know me, thanks for everything.
To people who don't know me, be glad that you didn't know me.

Lastly, I'll welcome all the comments you all have about me. Whether it is good or bad. May god bless :)

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Monday, June 14, 2010
|3:05 AM|

All of us have memories and we won't forget them unless we die or have memory loss.In the modern medical world, we still cannot cure memory loss.We can only evoke the memories by showing the person photos, things or someone.Why is this so?
Memories cannot be forgotten no matter how hard we try to forget.Ever wonder why our grandparents still can remember what happened in the past? The older generations treasure everything that they had.Including every single details. We just had to give a little reminder and it will just evoke the memories.
Been through lots of relationship and I had asked people to forget me and been asked to forget some people.Would i ever forget? No! I would never forget. I can only lie to myself and cover the memories up,But it will still stay there.
I hate remembering memories that hurt me inside.Not all memories are sweet. But we cannot decide what happens in our lives so we can only accept it. No matter what choices we make, it will still create memories that will stay in our mind.
I use to live in fear that I'll die soon cause my health is deteriorating drastically.Now I live in fear of losing these precious memories. Memories of my loved ones, my BFFs , my school mates, my teammates, all those who have played a part in my life. When I'm gone,I also hope the memories I give them will stay too. Don't hate me for being childish and selfish. It might hurt to remember me when I'm gone but PLEASE do remember me.
There are so many things we cannot bring with us when we are gone. We can bring these memories with us. I'm not sure what will happen when we die but I know that at least these memories will be with us until the very end.
Memories are the pieces of jigsaw puzzles that pieces up our lives.I'm glad that I can keep these memories.Whether it is sweet memories or sad memories,I'll treasure all these. Just want to thank the people who gave me these memories.
All the funny moments, sad moments and happy moments,I'll always remember them.That is my promise to those who will still remember when I'm gone. Readers,thanks for reading my blog. When I'm gone, this blog will become the memories between us.

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Friday, May 28, 2010
|3:01 AM|

LIES
Ever wondered why lies hurt so much? Whether the intention behind these lies is good or bad.The person who is being lied to will feel hurt.There is always a reason behind every lie.Sometimes we would even lie to ourselves.I'm sure everyone is guilty of that.If you're saing 'NO' to this, then you're lying to yourselves.

I always thought that lying was not a big thing.Anyone can do it.Neither did i know that i was lying to myself back then.I knew that lying was not a good thing but i still wanted to lie.We call lies that have good intentions-White lies.Why must there be any colour on the lies? Aren't we just trying to cover up the lies?

People who have lied would feel bad for lying.Those who don't feel bad are those that are truly bad people.I confess my sins.I have lied to many people.I lied to my family members,my friends,the people who loves me too.I never realise how much i have hurt them until i see their hearts bleed and tears flow down they faces.I'm sorry.My teacher once told me that lies would only need more lies to cover up.I agree with her.She was right.Lies do need more lies to cover up.It is a cycle.

Can we stop this cycle? We can.We have to bare our hearts and speak truthfully.No more lying.If i say that this can be done in just one day, I'm lying.This takes time.When you lied to someone,he or she have already lost their trust in you.You need to gain back the trust.Trust is not easy to get especially when you've hurted them once.

If the thought of lying ever comes up to you again,put yourselves in that person's shoe.How would you feel if you're being lied to.I'm sure it is not a good feeling.By coming to your senses,you've already taken the first step.Now is to continue this thinking.

I don't trust people easily.Especially now.I don't trust anyone or even myself.People might think I'm a loner but after being hurt so many times,I just cannot place my trust in anyone.It is tiring for me.I also want someone to be with me.Everyone wants someone to be there with them.To do that,you need to trust that person.I'm still waiting for the person to arrive.

You all might think that I'm so naive.Like waiting for my prince charming to arrive.I'm not being naive but just too scare to step out of my safe zone to get hurt by people again.Someone told me that making the mistake once is forgivable,second time can still be forgiven but the third time,this person is hopeless.I don't want to be a hopeless girl.

Being hurt by lies is not a joke.It really hurts.Think before you ever lie to someone again.I'm not some sacred person who can change my life in an instant.I'll try my best to not lie to anyone(though I'll still lie to my mum about the activities i have for the time being) but I'm sure i would not have to do that in the future too..

Lying is a sin.To redeem yoursleves,stop lying:)
May you succeed in this mission:)

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Sunday, May 23, 2010
|4:32 AM|

DEAD OR GOING TO DIE?
Everyone will die one day,its just a matter of time.I think everyone will agree to that.I'm sure some of you feel like ending your life.Listen to me, don't be silly.Instead of thinking of ways to die and troubling yourslef,just let things be.When your time is up,you will go automatically.At that time,no matter how much you wish to stay and make certain things right,you also won't have the chance.My post on the things that you miss will never come back is true.It happened to me.I did a lot of things that none of you all can imagine.People who know will wonder how I get through all those and stand right here with advice and a goal.My goal is to reach out to people ut there who are as helpless as me.Sometimes,things so simple can be hard to accomplish.Things have both side to it no matter what.No matter how you try to hide it,it wil show itself one day.Like what happen to me.People, i might seem so mature and strong to you but i'm also a normal girl and human.I'm also someone who will feel helpless.Like everyone else.Can you understand?

My life is screwed up.I'm feeling so stress up.I really wanted to end my life but i didn't as it is stupid to take your life like that.Your life is given to you by your parents and god.You don't have the rights to take it away.If you think dying is a way out,you are wrong.Dying is not a solution.I've tried.Its no use.Only weaklings do that.
In case you all didn't know, commiting suicide is a crime!

The thing you can do now is wish for things to be better.It sounds stupid but it works.Everyone needs a break once in a while.Even the presidents have to rest too.People who thinks dying is an option,listen up.If you die now,would others around you be happy? Would your parents be happy? Would you think I will be happy?

If you are my reader and after my advice,it doesn't help,I will feel sad.My advice was to help you all.Help you all get back on your feet and face tomorrow with me. No matter what, I'm always here.Can always tag me and ask me for advice. This blog is my pillar of strength. So to my beloved readers,hope this blog can relieve you all.Please support me!

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Saturday, April 24, 2010
|12:45 AM|

Truth is never beautiful and,

things that are beautiful may not be the truth..

Have you felt betrayed by whom you thought was your closest friend or someone whom you just love to the max?

In these circumstances, the beautiful images of you laughing with your friend and the images of you lasting with the one you love will just come crushing down.The truth hurts and it might be so ugly till you can't bear to see it..

In these kind of situation, you can't do anything but feel that your world has crumbled to pieces.A lot of you will cry and try to use lies to cover up the ugliness of the truth.Have you ever thick that the truth still remains ugly under the lies?

No one is perfect.I had also been in this kind of situation myself.To ask you all not to cry and just ignore it is a stupid advice.I cried too and i also tried covering up the truth with lies.This is humanity.My advice now is that you can cry all you want and try to bluff yourself all you want but you have to come to a point where you come clear to yourself and pick youurself up.

It is normal when you try to lie to yourself that everything that happen is just a dream.You keep hoping that somehow when you wake up the next morning,things will be right again.When you realise the next day that nothing was fixed,you will cry but when you are going to sleep,you will wish that things will be right again the next day.

This process goes on until you truly accept the truth.When you accept the truth,it becomes a fact to you.It did hurt you badly and it still does but at least now you are forming an immune system le.That will be the first step you take to recovering.

The beginning of a thousand mile walk begins from the very first step.As long you take the first step and do whateva you can.There will be no regrets.You owe noboby else but yourself.Don't ever regret about what you had done as you had made the choice yourself.The only thing you can do now is to stop making decisions that you will regret.

FINDING TRUTH♥

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Saturday, April 10, 2010
|1:07 AM|

Some people,
You thought you could see them again......
Somethings,
You thought could have continued......
Some words,
You thought you would have the chance to say it......

But just at the moment you turn your back,

Some people,
You would never see them again......
Somethings,
You would never be able to continue......
Some words,
You would never have the chance to say it again......

By the time the moon goes down and the sun goes up,
Everything is changed and irreverseble.......

So before things cannot be undone,
Don't regret and treasure what you can do now......

Just like my blog say,
Things once done cannot undone......

FINDING TRUTH♥

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