Name :SARINE CHENG SI MIN♥
Relationship status :SINGLE
Age :15
D.O.B :27th FEB
MSN :her-journey@hotmail.com
“I have often been downcast, but never in despair;
I REGARD MY HIDING AS A DANGEROUS ADVENTURE,
ROMANTIC AND INTERESTING AT THE SAME TIME.
IN MY DIARY I TREAT ALL MY PRIVATIONS AS AMUSING.
I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND NOW TO LEAD A DIFFERENT LIFE FROM OTHER GIRLS.
MY START HAS BEEN SO VERY FULL OF INTEREST,
AND THAT IS THE SOLE REASON WHY I HAVE TO LAUGH AT THE MOST PAINFUL AND HUMOROUS SIDE OF THESE MOMENTS.”
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I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so F**K OFF if you hate it.
[LOADS OF THOUGHTS]
Things that have been done cannot be undone... ♥
Just get alive and be yourself... ♥
You won't get affected by others if you don't let them affect you... ♥
Truth is never beautiful and what is beautiful might not be the truth... ♥
LIES Ever wondered why lies hurt so much? Whether the intention behind these lies is good or bad.The person who is being lied to will feel hurt.There is always a reason behind every lie.Sometimes we would even lie to ourselves.I'm sure everyone is guilty of that.If you're saing 'NO' to this, then you're lying to yourselves.
I always thought that lying was not a big thing.Anyone can do it.Neither did i know that i was lying to myself back then.I knew that lying was not a good thing but i still wanted to lie.We call lies that have good intentions-White lies.Why must there be any colour on the lies? Aren't we just trying to cover up the lies?
People who have lied would feel bad for lying.Those who don't feel bad are those that are truly bad people.I confess my sins.I have lied to many people.I lied to my family members,my friends,the people who loves me too.I never realise how much i have hurt them until i see their hearts bleed and tears flow down they faces.I'm sorry.My teacher once told me that lies would only need more lies to cover up.I agree with her.She was right.Lies do need more lies to cover up.It is a cycle.
Can we stop this cycle? We can.We have to bare our hearts and speak truthfully.No more lying.If i say that this can be done in just one day, I'm lying.This takes time.When you lied to someone,he or she have already lost their trust in you.You need to gain back the trust.Trust is not easy to get especially when you've hurted them once.
If the thought of lying ever comes up to you again,put yourselves in that person's shoe.How would you feel if you're being lied to.I'm sure it is not a good feeling.By coming to your senses,you've already taken the first step.Now is to continue this thinking.
I don't trust people easily.Especially now.I don't trust anyone or even myself.People might think I'm a loner but after being hurt so many times,I just cannot place my trust in anyone.It is tiring for me.I also want someone to be with me.Everyone wants someone to be there with them.To do that,you need to trust that person.I'm still waiting for the person to arrive.
You all might think that I'm so naive.Like waiting for my prince charming to arrive.I'm not being naive but just too scare to step out of my safe zone to get hurt by people again.Someone told me that making the mistake once is forgivable,second time can still be forgiven but the third time,this person is hopeless.I don't want to be a hopeless girl.
Being hurt by lies is not a joke.It really hurts.Think before you ever lie to someone again.I'm not some sacred person who can change my life in an instant.I'll try my best to not lie to anyone(though I'll still lie to my mum about the activities i have for the time being) but I'm sure i would not have to do that in the future too..
Lying is a sin.To redeem yoursleves,stop lying:) May you succeed in this mission:)
FINDING TRUTH♥
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Sunday, May 23, 2010
|4:32 AM|
DEAD OR GOING TO DIE? Everyone will die one day,its just a matter of time.I think everyone will agree to that.I'm sure some of you feel like ending your life.Listen to me, don't be silly.Instead of thinking of ways to die and troubling yourslef,just let things be.When your time is up,you will go automatically.At that time,no matter how much you wish to stay and make certain things right,you also won't have the chance.My post on the things that you miss will never come back is true.It happened to me.I did a lot of things that none of you all can imagine.People who know will wonder how I get through all those and stand right here with advice and a goal.My goal is to reach out to people ut there who are as helpless as me.Sometimes,things so simple can be hard to accomplish.Things have both side to it no matter what.No matter how you try to hide it,it wil show itself one day.Like what happen to me.People, i might seem so mature and strong to you but i'm also a normal girl and human.I'm also someone who will feel helpless.Like everyone else.Can you understand?
My life is screwed up.I'm feeling so stress up.I really wanted to end my life but i didn't as it is stupid to take your life like that.Your life is given to you by your parents and god.You don't have the rights to take it away.If you think dying is a way out,you are wrong.Dying is not a solution.I've tried.Its no use.Only weaklings do that. In case you all didn't know, commiting suicide is a crime! The thing you can do now is wish for things to be better.It sounds stupid but it works.Everyone needs a break once in a while.Even the presidents have to rest too.People who thinks dying is an option,listen up.If you die now,would others around you be happy? Would your parents be happy? Would you think I will be happy?
If you are my reader and after my advice,it doesn't help,I will feel sad.My advice was to help you all.Help you all get back on your feet and face tomorrow with me. No matter what, I'm always here.Can always tag me and ask me for advice. This blog is my pillar of strength. So to my beloved readers,hope this blog can relieve you all.Please support me!
