Name :SARINE CHENG SI MIN♥
Relationship status :SINGLE
Age :15
D.O.B :27th FEB
MSN :her-journey@hotmail.com
“I have often been downcast, but never in despair;
I REGARD MY HIDING AS A DANGEROUS ADVENTURE,
ROMANTIC AND INTERESTING AT THE SAME TIME.
IN MY DIARY I TREAT ALL MY PRIVATIONS AS AMUSING.
I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND NOW TO LEAD A DIFFERENT LIFE FROM OTHER GIRLS.
MY START HAS BEEN SO VERY FULL OF INTEREST,
AND THAT IS THE SOLE REASON WHY I HAVE TO LAUGH AT THE MOST PAINFUL AND HUMOROUS SIDE OF THESE MOMENTS.”
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I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so F**K OFF if you hate it.
[LOADS OF THOUGHTS]
Things that have been done cannot be undone... ♥
Just get alive and be yourself... ♥
You won't get affected by others if you don't let them affect you... ♥
Truth is never beautiful and what is beautiful might not be the truth... ♥
It is okay not to be okay We don't have a perfect life.We get hurt and we get affected by a lot of things. There are many things on this earth that we cannot control. We cannot control how people look at us and we cannot control what is going to happen to us next.
I don't know how much time I've left on this world but just when I'm preparing for the worst, something else worse happens. Some people around me showed me how much they wanted gone from their lives. They think that I'm a B**** who make use of others to get what I want. They think that I made others feel inferior and sad so that I can feel superior and haapy.
Just in a split of the time, all these camo right at me. I cannot comprehend le. Too much for me to bear. At first I didn't want to leave my love ones so early but now t seems like I being detest. The sooner I leave, the sooner they will be released from the sufferings I give them. Sorry if I caused you sufferings. I didn't mean it.
It hurts to realise how much of a demon I am. This person's last words to me was-" JUST F*** OFF B**** , UR HOPELESS" . Can see that this person hate me to the core. At least that person got a chance to sold me and release his anger. I'm being hated and detested. What a joke. I wanted to help people like me but I cannot even comprehend it myself.It is eating me up from inside out.
I'm so hopeless right? A horrible girl. I deserve to be hated and detested after all. I tried so hard to develop this blog in a good way but it still end up like that but I think that maybe you all learn something from this blog is that no matter how much a bad person try to change, peple still have the image of that bad person in their mind. I tried so hard but truth is that it just doesn't work out for me.
To all the readers, thanks for reading my post. To the people who know me, thanks for everything. To people who don't know me, be glad that you didn't know me.
Lastly, I'll welcome all the comments you all have about me. Whether it is good or bad. May god bless :)
FINDING TRUTH♥
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Monday, June 14, 2010
|3:05 AM|
All of us have memories and we won't forget them unless we die or have memory loss.In the modern medical world, we still cannot cure memory loss.We can only evoke the memories by showing the person photos, things or someone.Why is this so? Memories cannot be forgotten no matter how hard we try to forget.Ever wonder why our grandparents still can remember what happened in the past? The older generations treasure everything that they had.Including every single details. We just had to give a little reminder and it will just evoke the memories. Been through lots of relationship and I had asked people to forget me and been asked to forget some people.Would i ever forget? No! I would never forget. I can only lie to myself and cover the memories up,But it will still stay there. I hate remembering memories that hurt me inside.Not all memories are sweet. But we cannot decide what happens in our lives so we can only accept it. No matter what choices we make, it will still create memories that will stay in our mind. I use to live in fear that I'll die soon cause my health is deteriorating drastically.Now I live in fear of losing these precious memories. Memories of my loved ones, my BFFs , my school mates, my teammates, all those who have played a part in my life. When I'm gone,I also hope the memories I give them will stay too. Don't hate me for being childish and selfish. It might hurt to remember me when I'm gone but PLEASE do remember me. There are so many things we cannot bring with us when we are gone. We can bring these memories with us. I'm not sure what will happen when we die but I know that at least these memories will be with us until the very end. Memories are the pieces of jigsaw puzzles that pieces up our lives.I'm glad that I can keep these memories.Whether it is sweet memories or sad memories,I'll treasure all these. Just want to thank the people who gave me these memories. All the funny moments, sad moments and happy moments,I'll always remember them.That is my promise to those who will still remember when I'm gone. Readers,thanks for reading my blog. When I'm gone, this blog will become the memories between us.
